Why Am I So Angry?
My sister, who is an alcoholic and prescription drug addict, was diagnosed with terminal cancer six months ago. None of her children would help with her care.
It was suggested by them and other family members that since I work from home, maybe I would be willing to take her. My mother who lived with me died in my home 8 months before. I live in North Dakota, they all live in California. So, getting a break is not an option.
My sister, miraculously, has gone into remission. While I am very thankful for that, I am now stuck with her living here and having to deal with her alcoholic, drug addict and smoking habits. And I hate it!!!
She stays in her room all day playing Farmville and does not want to get on with life. She is on a very limited income and cannot live on her own anywhere near the level she has living with me. I don't charge her rent or utilities and I have a second car at her disposal.
I resent her because she promised she would quit smoking (which she has not). Now, she's hooked on the RX drugs, morphine and Valium and sleeping pills which the doctor still gives her. And she won't try to get a life! I don't have to take care of her, but I can't trust her home alone for very long either. One day she left the oven on for 5 hours at 400 degrees! And she never apologizes!
I'm realizing why I didn't hang out with her much in the past. She was always passed out and in bed by the time I was off work. I don't know why I have such strong negative feelings. I pray about it every day.