Who Helps Me? - an Only Child of an 85 year Mother

by Rose
(Westchester, NY)

I am an only child. I am a 62 year old woman with 2 children. My son is 13 and my daughter is 17 and has Autism.


My mother is 85 and lives alone with 9 cats , there were 20 and 1 dog in a house 1 1/2 hours away from me. She has 1 friend, who does not drive and hates all her relatives, and truly hates me.

She chooses to live alone with her animals because she says people are too emotional for her. She refuses to sign a Power of Attorney or a Health Care Proxy. I have numerous Doctor's constantly calling me to say she has either missed her appointment or is so sick she needs to be in a nursing home.

She has uncontrolled diabetes because she forgets to take it or she takes it more than necessary.

She hires woman to clean out her cat's rooms and sometimes has these woman care for her, who know nothing about her illness and medications.

Now, after so much frustration on my part since December of 2012, I decided to have a limited guardianship appointed to her. I want a skilled nurse to visit her everyday and make sure she is okay and take her medications and to watch over her finances just to make sure she doesn't give out another signed blank check to one of the cat ladies, who was honest enough to give the check back to her.

My mother also gave a cat lady her discover credit card, which the woman never returned.

There are so many stories about my mother's mental decline. I also believe that all her life she had a mental illness, which now , is extremely pronounced.

She is Slandering me by telling whoever she can that i was a drug addict which I never was and other stories trying to disgrace me because she thinks i am taking her to court to have her put away in a nursing home.

If she were of sound mind, she could read the court papers that says nothing about that, only that I want her to be safe in her own home. The judge knows my request.

But, she refuses to believe anything else, so she is making up stories about me. Actually, she forced me to give up my 3 month old baby when I was 19 because she was embarrassed and afraid of her own mother and therefore I have spent everyday since I was 19 having to cope with this tragedy of losing my baby.

So, I want to tell the court that she has and is verbally abusing me, causing me extreme emotional pain and now she is slandering me. Now, I will have to defend myself in court about not being a drug addict and all the stories she is making up.

Sure, I took drugs after she took my baby away, but, I was no junkie and i wasn't addicted to drugs. I took them when all my friends would and we would go out dancing. For me , it was to kill the pain of having to live my life without my daughter. This was from 1969-1975.

On top of it all, what does any of this have to do with now? I am a professional artist, a dance teacher, an advocate for my autistic daughter ,a mother to my son, a wife to my husband and i volunteer all the time in my neighborhood. I am considered to be a very good mother and an upstanding positive influence in my community.

My mother has never volunteered for anything, she has no other children, neglected me because of her mother and her cats and most certainly neglected my father who lived alone in an apt. in NYC while she lived in the country upstate. she was NOT INTERESTED IN MY LIFE, NEVER ANY TALK ABOUT COLLEGE and she hated my father and his family. She is no good.

So, I have been stuck having to drive back and forth to her house, Doctor's, 3 hours a day 2-3 times a week, leave my kids home alone , so that my mother stops being upset because she doesn't remember that I go and visit her and do all these things for her.

She just doesn't care about me or my family, only about herself and how to interrupt and disrupt my life, because she has no one else.

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Forgiveness
by: Anonymousrose

Have you ever had your force you to give up your baby if you have any children I have tried many times and it doesn't work.
Its impossible.

My mother is not worthy of my forgiveness.I am a practicing very religious greek othodox and I try everyday, but she never stops humiliating me or whatever.

She is very sick and you know what, I am no longer on the fence I'm done.I appreciate your comment.

This is just one of the tragedies in life that don't get fixed like death. You can't bring that person back no matter how hard you try.

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Good Advice
by: Anonymous

I think the previous reply gave some good advice about some psychotherapy or at least a good friend to vent without judgment. Sometimes a journal can help. Write down every little thing you remember from your past, have a good cry, and then let it go.

Your entry started out all about your mom but ended up all about you. And after you poured out your heart about the past abuse from your mom, you stated it quite well, "What does any of this have to do with me now?" You went on to list the fine accomplishments you have achieved and the good place you are in your life now.

It seems if you can dig through those past experiences and leave them behind once and for all you will have the emotional energy to deal with your mom in the present. Right now, you're being torn in two directions between the past and the present, and you only have so much capacity to deal with today's issues.

It feels like you're on the fence and you can either get dragged back down into all the mire, or you can make a clean break in your heart and your mind and move forward.

Forgive your mom for the past. It's a very hard thing to do, but you are the only one living with all that hatred inside of you. That's what's killing you. You will become a bigger person for it, and the strength you gain from it will help you on your road to recovery.

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Stop the Abuse
by: Anonymous

My heart goes out to you. Your mother makes mine look sane! Okay. Why are you doing this care giving? If my mom gets to be like yours I am done with her forever. Already I feel seconds away from that now.

I am going to try the see the psychotherapist approach: I am going to one and she is very helpful to me. Now I am thinking of saying to my mother:

I am going to a psychotherapist (allow her to think I am crazy, that's fine) and my psychotherapist wants to meet you, Mom. I am hoping she can help us communicate better.

Will let you know how that goes.

Seems like in your case, you do need a counselor for your own growth and release of the past and then see where your healing takes you in your new view of that mother. You might decide that she can NOT be your problem anymore.
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