What to do, When you Don't Know What to Do!
I have been caring for my 80yr old mother for 2yrs now. I have a sister who has and does not help at all and a brother in prison. there has been no family support. I can't work and quit school to care for mom. My husband and close friend has been my ONLY SOURCE OF SUPPORT.
The doctors have given me very little hope for mom living much longer and this has caused me more stress and pain. They are asking me to make a decision that I can't make. It is too painful.
I just want to have her back like she once was, healthy and strong. I am so mentally, physically ans emotionally tired and drained. I want to just scream until I have no more voice. I just sometimes go in her room and watch her sleep, I sit and cry and make myself remember the features of her face and hold her hands. I know when she moans in pain that she is still with me and I fear the day when I can't hear that moan again.
I'M hurting so bad and I LOVE HER SO MUCH. I wish I could do more to take away her pain.