TIRED

My mother is 97 years old and living with my husband and I. We took her in 1 1/2 years ago when she fell and broke her hip. Thought she was on her last leg.

Now, 3 more emergency hospitalizations later, she is still with us, but more and more difficult to care for. She has no desire to go on. Nothing to look forward to. I am beginning to resent the day we moved her in. It has totally disrupted my marriage and my life. What life (ha).

I don't have a life anymore and I am mentally exhausted. I can't put her in a home though. Not the right thing to do.
I'm afraid she is going to outlive me. Just because I feel like shooting myself.