(Pikeville, NC, USA)
This site is a blessing, it's Biblical for strength and soothing. It's like a cleansing release of the raging, heavy, ugly, unforgivable secret that I have kept trapped inside for so long and dared not let anyone know.
The discovery that this is not my unique burden is like a precious, soothing ointment. To know that all my feelings and thoughts and times of despair are, in fact, witnessed by so many supporters is a wrap of comfort and a powerful bolt that shatters my guilt and shame...the guilt and shame, that's the worst.
Over and over and over I seek forgiveness for and despise the monster that I have become; yet I continue to aimlessly wander in this crazy, hateful maze and repeatedly violate all of the beliefs and principles of the me that I used to be.
As I read each of these situations I was astounded by the shared descriptions of the lost lives so like my own; these could have been written by me!
Whoever is responsible for this blessed outlet deserves a Heavenly reward.
I intend to lean on it frequently and use it as a special crutch of friendship from those who genuinely know. Truly, we are all walking in the same worn shoes and I pray for God's deliverance for each of us.