Single Mom and 80 Year Old Dad
I have been searching the internet to come across experiences like mine. And here I am. It is sooo difficult to take care of an aging parent and here I am a single mom of 2 boys a toddler and a teenager with their own issues where I am always feeling to pull my hair out.
My mom died 3 years ago and left me in charge of the home with my aging dad by default. my other siblings don't really contribute and I have felt such rage anger depression, I have to hide in the bathroom to cry and even then there isn't much privacy living with all these men who just see me as one big maid to supply their needs.
I can't even enjoy my own self in my own life. I work full time as a single mom . I live day to day as I don't have reliable caregivers for the toddler and my dad with his onset of old age dementia has given me a near nervous breakdown with his constant or pretend, forgetfulness or pretending to forget.
I don't know anymore.
The insanity of his questions, nagging self centeredness only on his needs is driving me crazy. I just feel so alone helpless and like many others here I feel I have no redress as an almost 50 year old woman living in a parents house who gives me no privacy and space. I just feel resentful about everything :(
He, my dad wants me to answer all his needs as if I am his wife and treats me with disrespect. How can my boys learn to respect women if my own dad treats me like this???
However, I used to be the apple of my fathers eye as the only girl but upon my moms death he is totally against me now and only wants me around to care for my jobless 44 year old brother. why don't these people see that I have my own life and my mission is to care for my 2 children and not 2 grown men ???
I can't seem to see beyond the perspective like yes 1 day he wont be here anymore and I will regret but right now it is too painful to even think of that day...... Please help