Sad Scared Guilty and up at 3 in the Morning
by Daughter is Trying
My Alzheimer's mother fell and broke her hip and it has been a very difficult time since. I closed out her room at the memory care community and she has been in a skilled nursing facility for almost 2 months now. I tried to get her placed back into a memory care community but was denied because she was uncooperative on the day the nurse assessed her.
I feel so bad every time I visit my dear mom, and she looks so sad stuck in the hospital setting.
How do people get through these awful times? I am just so tired after 7 years of caregiving now.
I wish I could bring her home back to a normal environment, and I feel like a rotten daughter for leaving her in a institution. But the truth is, I am barely keeping it together myself. The toll has been huge on me and I am very weak and fragile now.
It seems so sad and so wrong that her life is reduced to this miserable existence.
I know other people have it worse, and I just cant imagine how they can bear it.
My mom is 85 and I don't know if she will live another 10 years like this. I think she wishes she could disappear.
The guilt I feel for not being able to bring her home is so big. Here I am sleepless again at 3 in the morning. Just a constant cycle of stress.
I feel sad and scared about what the future holds.
Anyone else out there like me?