I have no idea what Plan I'm on now. It feels more like what Planet am I on? Preparing for another phase of Mom's life. I thought the last five years of custodial care was difficult enough but, looking ahead, now there is planning for nursing home care, in-home care, and the financial arrangements that go along with all of that. I was hoping that at some point, mom would just gently start shutting down, sleep more, eat less, and maybe would have that death that everyone wants, in her sleep, overnight, her heart just stops and she slips into the twilight.
Although that's a possibility, I can't live like that will happen. Last week she took a fall in the kitchen and bruised everything pretty bad. No breaks. But if it had been a hip, she would've gone to the hospital,then to rehab, then to a nursing home. I haven't done my homework of any of this.
It's exhausting to realize that I've only reached Hump Day. Possibly the worst is yet to come.