Out Of Sight Out Of Mind
I think my father is dying. I've thought this before and he is still here, but as he gets older the probability of this happening increases. I am on my own with this as my brothers and sisters do not agree with me. None of them live near my parents and they argue that this is my parents fault, which it probably is, but I can't bear the thought of them being totally alone now that they are having difficulty in walking, driving and worse feeling alone.
The problem is that I have problems of my own and have for the past 12 years tried to help my parents and only made matters worse. I now don't talk to one brother and one sister and have scant tense communication with the remaining brother.
I have tried in the past to communicate through phone and email and to collectively come up with a plan of action but I feel all would be okay if the only one taking action was me.
I have seen my life disrupted over and over again with the consequent effect of losing work time and money and the constant drain on my emotions and on my relationships. It is always okay for me to cancel a lesson or give up my weekend so that my parents aren't alone.
They on the other hand don't feel the responsibility and think its okay for them to come on holidays and be entertained. As my parents abilities have decrease, so have the visits.
Now I think my father is dying, again. He needs my support, my business needs my support and I don't feel strong enough to support myself.