Only Child. No Choice.
I had a very controlling childhood. My mother was terrible and I had to fight for the simplest things such as going to a movie. I was always put down and my decisions questioned. Since I had not much of a life I listened to my father who kept telling me this was “My house” and rather than fight, there would be a “Someday”.
I’m 52 and I know I made the choice to stay because not only was it easier but who would think parents would steer you wrong? Especially my father.
My whole life I heard from my father that he wanted a girl because they never leave you. Now I know what he meant. My mother died 16 years ago and I have been taking care of him ever since. My mother did everything so.
I ended up doing everything. He can’t even write a check.
So, I never got my life. I’m trapped here. I suffer from catholic guilt and when I get up in the morning I’m angry and resentful and bitter. And guilty. He was the good parent too.
He won’t move and he really thinks I have my own life!! I am on my own here. I do have a boyfriend who will help but it really isn’t his responsibility. He’s a lot older than me so he is done with all this.
His mother remained independent until her 90s and even though he was the only child left, he had relatives that would take her to appointments etc, because he worked. Now I’m out of job. I’m so angry that this is how my life turned out.
Bitter in Pa.