On the Contrary, My Mom is an Angel
I have read the stories and posted my own comments,the only difference is that my Mom is an angel. She's my best friend! The part that's killing me is that I'm losing her little by little to Alzheimer's.
Yes, I am angry at my siblings because they get to live their lives and don't think twice about it. I love my Mom with all my heart and would do anything for her. My problem is that I love my family as well.
I'm 55 years old and my husband has a strong history of cancer in his family. We just buried his uncle who survived less than 5 months after being diagnosed. We've been married almost 32 years,with most of that time caring for my Dad, my Mom and his Mom, who died of cancer.
I never thought I'd have to choose between my husband and my Mom.I know she wouldn't want that. I'm so tired and I can't think anymore. I cry all the time. I already do everything from doctors appointments, grocery shopping...I just don't think that I can be a 24/7 caregiver and take care of my family. I want to spend time with my husband because I'm so afraid something will happen. Life is so short. I've always been the one for all the family gatherings and everything. Now I feel so guilty . I feel like I'm in the darkest hole and no way out without losing!