Old Age is Just Misery
Old age seems to be a miserable condition, there is no cure just a deterioration of your body and soul, people say that they want to live to be a 100 yet no one really wants to grow old.
My mother is nearly 88 years old, I see to her needs make sure she is comfortable yet, old age brings loneliness and a feeling of not being of any worth. You have done your job on this earth now is the time to wait for God, sometimes that can be a long wait.
I feel miserable watching my mother and her health problems that have been brought on by old age, there is nothing anyone can do. There is no pill to make her well just the same thing day in day out, my life is not my own as I have the constant caring for her, and the worse is the depression she has.
I cannot really say that I am a free being and at my time of life I feel I should be as the clock is ticking away. I sometimes think that nothing will ever change, my mother suffers greatly with self pity and has lost interest in everything.
She does not live just merely exists.
So many of her friends and family have died, the latest being her niece Sylvia. Sylvia died a horrible death....how she kept her sanity I will never know, she was very close to my mother and the way she died and her death has effected my mother terribly.
I hope that my mother is soon released from her misery. I do not wish my mother dead, I love my mother dearly, but it is awful seeing your mother in such a state and knowing that it will only get worse.
God bless us all the old, the sick and those that care for them, and the only pray is that for strength to carry on.