Not Where I Need to Be
by Ms. Doolittle
I would like to visit with my Mom who is in a care facility now to handle her Alzheimer's. Due to poor finances, I am no longer able to visit as frequently as I would really like to.
Logistics has a lot to do with my problems of not visiting often enough as it is quite a trip. My issues these days are the guilty feelings that I have over not seeing this person like I used to be able to do.
I am on a very small income now due to a recent job loss and am looking ever since for a comparable position but have had no luck. What little money I do have goes for rent, utilities, food, and gas money.
I feel like my family back home feels like I have abandoned my parent but that is not the case as with no money how am I to get there and back?
The last visit I had I spent too much between gas and take out food for us that i have gotten behind in some of my bills.
I wish there was some sage advice on how I can help from where I am or deal with these guilty feelings.
I love my Mom and miss seeing her even if she doesn't know who I am anymore. I know who she is and that's all that really matters. Any suggestions on how a person to better cope with this situation. I can't be the only person in this predicament.