I am so burnt out being a caregiver of my Mom even being in a nursing home. It's a nightmare that's never ending.
I wish now I had just walked away. I'm locked in & can't see anyway out. This women has been abusive to us three children her whole life. She married my father @ 14 years old. I can't hardly stand her.
I'm absolutely physically & mentally sick after being around her. Her & my father had sex in front of me as far back as 3 or 4 years old. I am the oldest daughter. I am pretty sure I was present when my brother was conceived as well as my baby sister.
Her and my father divorced when about 13 years old & she had sex in front of us all the time,and either her boyfriends would try to have something to do with me or that hated kids. We(my brother & I)moved back with our Dad..My baby sister was left with a nightmare mother(not a mother a mentally ill terrorist).
For some reason She has always hated me the most. She spent most of life in horrific situations usually caused by her craziness.
Even though she is in a nursing home,I'm still burdened with yearly reports to Medicaid and other mentally torturer of her crap. Oh, she's an angel in front of my daughter and my granddaughter. But, she cuts me down. I am so out of it I
sometimes wonder how much longer I can hang on.
My siblings have flat quit doing anything to help. Oh my brother was always causing me & anyone around problems. He is like a Male side of our so called Mother. I'm 64 I just want to live my life in peace. I do not know how to legally stop being her caregiver and I don't know how much more I can take.
I'm depressed, I isolate,I'm on medications for depression. I am seeing a counselor every week. A couple of years before having strokes & going to nursing home, I invited my then 76 year old Mother to Christmas dinner at which time her boyfriend younger than me shows up..while she was cutting up something this boyfriend got behind her&started grinding on her backside and then French kissing her in front of my Grandchildren & her Great Grand children..at which time my children gathered up my grand children,her great children had to be ushered outside.
Then when she went to the nursing home.
This idiot boyfriend starts showing up to visit..the staff thought he was her son. I found out his number and told him if I heard of him back at the nursing home(especially having sex with her there)I would file charges..
Does anyone have any idea why I AM done with this crazy hateful abusive person that says she's our Mom..I am DONE and I want completely out..Thanks for letting me post. Blessings