My Sob Story
I am 72 years old and live with my elderly mother who is 94 years old. I have always lived with her. She was an over protective mother when I was a young man. She would not let me date any women. I have no friends. I feel so alone. My mother has dementia and doesn't even know who I am.
My health is failing. I had a heart attack 10 years ago. I have high blood pressure, diabetes, vision problems and so forth. I suffer from migraine headache everyday. I have no source of income. Mother would not allow me to leave the home and look for employment. I do not get social security because I don't have enough work history.
I fear for my future. I am beginning to think my mother will out live me and maybe she will. I have been resigned t thinking God put me on earth for no other reason other to be a life long slave to my mother.
I have two brothers but neither of them are in my moms or my life. They never come over to visit or call to check on mom and me.
I spend most of the day taking mother out to eat all her meals everyday. Leaves no time for myself. I usually spend most of my time at home doing laundry and cleaning the house. Mother sometimes makes a mess in the bathroom as she is unable to control her bowels. It is so disheartening to have to get on my hand and knees and clean the mess.
My mother refuses to shower and she has body odor. Sleeps on the same sheets weeks at a time between launderings. Even though I try my best to provide her clean clothes, she often wears the same clothes for days at a time.
I cry myself to sleep every night thinking to myself when will the madness stop. I want to lie my own life but I fear my time on earth is nearing the end as I am elderly myself.