Here it is, the mother of all days, when we give to mom all the kudos for being mom. Today is special for me because, ironically, I've finally realized I have to let go of mom being "mom". I keep trying to communicate, have meaningful conversation, and touching heart-to-heart moments but she is not at that point in her journey. That is my expectation, not hers.
My attachment, not hers. I have to accept where she is at on her journey. Her soul journey. I have to step back and release her from that mom role that carries a life time of memories and connotations.
I have to stop telling her what to do. Stop trying to control the situation. Stop trying to keep her in this world with every little thing in place. Holding on, me holding on, has to stop.
My place now is to just assist her in what she wants and needs. Ask her. Don't tell her. I have to let her soul return to God in her own way.