Mad and Tired as HELL!
(Camden , SC)
I am the only surviving child and my bipolar, Parkinson afflicted, mid-stage Alzheimer's mother lives with me and has for 20 plus years. When my husband and I decided to buy a home we brought her to live with us. That was the biggest mistake ever!!!
I work full time, my husband is terrific in that he cares for her while I'm at work. He bathes, feeds, dresses, takes her to appointments, etc. he works part time but, has a flexible schedule that allows him to check on her constantly throughout the day. We can't afford help and when we've had help they quit because she's awful to deal with or want more pay. I resent that my life is not my own anymore.
I've raised my children and I HATE being tied to my house after work and all weekends. She accuses us of stealing her money, not so but, I refuse to handle it because I'm tired of being accused of stealing it, so my husband does it.
She tells family and friends that we steal from her. What little she has is used to pay for her medications, help with food, utility bills. But, she couldn't have a bank balance as large as it is if we stole from her. All she can do for herself is feed herself and take her dentures out. I love her on some level I'm sure but after 54 years of dealing with her bipolar issues and now the other health issues if she would die tomorrow I wouldn't cry because she's dead.
I'd be crying (if I cry) because I never knew what it was like to have someone who loved me. She's always been manipulative, angry, overly sensitive and demanding. I wish she would die tonight so that I could finally be free.