Losing It ~ Feel Like Moving Away
I'm sick and tired of worrying every time Mom says their funds are low or over drawn! Together they have more money than I. I'm alone, retired, no kids.
They live in a nice new house with new stuff; while I live in an apartment the size of a postage stamp and pay out the nose for rent (way more than 30% of my income). I have to go without a lot just to pay rent.
I have only one thing they don't (other than a bit of youth) ~ a little savings account ~ for emergencies and to bury myself. My emergencies ~ not theirs! If my 20 year old car (older than theirs) needs something, I'd (hopefully) be able to take care of it.
If I let them borrow,
1. I'll never see it again,
2. they'll blow it on things like eating out vs. being frugal and eating at home like I do every day!
I feel like moving as far away as possible, so I'm no longer available. OR .. telling them I have no more savings account. Maybe they'll just stop telling me they've over spent and thinking they can fall back on me! Who will I fall back on ~ nobody!
My sibling has $ and a family, yet they don't bother her with these every day worries!
I feel sick with worry most of the time. I'd hoped to start my live anew, and maybe meet someone again. But with the worry I carry with me all the time, I don't see how that's possible.
I sometimes feel like one of us has got to move on and die. I guess it'll be me cause I'm too broke to care for myself, and they're going to make sure I'm too broke and broke down to ever meet anyone or care for myself properly.