For any of you out there like me, who find themselves in the trenches alone, you know the loneliness I'm talking about.
My mom is in early stage Alzheimer's or senility or dementia, or whatever label you want to put on it, she is just losing her ability to think and talk straight. I live with her, there is no family around, and most days it's just her and I here in the house.
I have two brothers who have families and they are aware of the situation and we talk about it but they live far away. I have good friends who listen to me all the time and give me a shoulder to cry on. I even go to a support group once a month.
I'm also a spiritual person who relies on God for my strength.
But for all that, I don't have a partner in life and I don't have children and when things happen with my mom there is no one who is standing in the same room with me hearing and seeing and experiencing it all just like I do, at the same time I do.
By the time I see a friend or a group or talk to someone, I've had to absorb it all and deal with it all on my own, there is no one to share the burden. I think we are a unique group, those of us who do it all by ourselves.
So much is done without witness, without validation, without confirmation, we go through it by ourselves and just bury a lot of it and keep going forward.
So just a shout-out and a big hug for all of you in the same boat. I think at the end of the day that's all I really want is a hug by someone who understands.