Jill

I guess, I don't have any issues with helping my parents. The are still pretty self sufficient, but my mother has been "losing touch" for some time now.

Short term memory is going very fast, I hardly recognize the person that I have always known as my best friend.I think when you have this person that has been the closest person to you for most of your life... it's like your eyes see them they are here but in a very real sense they are gone.

Kind of like a stranger. I'm having some real issues with getting my own brain wrapped around the idea to accept the changes. The frustration I feel is kind of all consuming over the loss of my "mother". She's here but in a much diminished way. I feel like I am grieving the loss of her and yet every time we are together I keep expecting the "old mom" and she's not who I know.

Slight glimpses here and there, but they are just fleeting fragments. I miss my mother, my friend. Losing her, before losing her.