Is There a Pill I Can Take?
I am now a widow, after two years of caring for my husband as he died from cancer in hospice in our home. I would never trade that opportunity away for anything. It was hard. It was painful. It was overwhelming. It was frightening.
I taught at a university 3/4 time and ran a business full-time, while living in the country where medications are not delivered and a doctor is far away. Juggling everything made me feel more exhausted than I have ever felt in my life.
But from my experience, I learned about human need for other humans and what loving really is. I miss my husband and I am grateful for that experience. He died in my arms.
Now, I'm alone. My parents have died. My sister has died... 45 years old. Our son is several states away and a great young man with a great job/stunning salary, a good-looking guy in the prime of his life and still single, living in a home with six close friends.
While I do come from a generation that believes there is both pain and huge value from both respecting and taking care of our elders, I know that times are different now. What I want is a pill. I want a pill that I can take when I get to the age where I need another human. I want a pill that ends my breathing.
I read these stories and it is so unsettling to me as I start the elder aging process. I know none of the writers will ever age and need anyone. Somehow they are going to miss that learning part of the life journey. Talk about lucky. Gosh.
How can we get an off-button equivalent? I don't want anyone saying anything like I read here about me, ever. Oh my God. I would be horrified.
I'm serious. I'm looking. And maybe we need such a pill for children to hand out to every parent once they hit...what 65? 70 is probably best. Imagine the relief.
I can hope I can find one. If so.. I'll share so you can have some for your parents! Good deal, eh!