Is my Elderly Parent from the Exorcist?
(Los Angeles, California)
Why me? Should not be the question rather wow! It's me! God chose me to bare the burden of caregiver for my 88 year old mother, while my lazy sister suns herself everyday awaiting for the cool summers evening breeze so she may ride into the sunset on her horse while drinking a Pina Colada.
Yes, I'm going to heaven, well, maybe, we'll see. Angry , me? You bet I'm angry!! Since about 5 months ago when my freedom was ripped from my soul, I now know there is a slight possibility I am not going to heaven. All those nice things I thought about myself, compassionate, giving to a fault, etc. Is out the window, adios, it's not happening.
Now I see the real person inside. The one I've been hiding from for the last 50 years and it' not pretty. Could this irritable, bloodsucking screaming person be me? YES!!!!
When I look at my mother I no longer see, well, my mother. I see something from out of the Exorcist. Something that's taking control of me, manipulating me, making me their slave and sucking the life out of me!!!!! Can you relate?