I'm not Angry I'm just Sad and Stressed
I am 25 years old and have been taking care of my mom who is 44 for 4 years now. My mom has muscular dystrophy and it's getting worse.
I am at my breaking point.
I don't get any help from my siblings because I am the oldest. My brother is in college and I also take care of my 16 year old sister who helps me here and there because i want her to focus on graduating high school.
I feel like my life has been stolen as I have no friends, no social life and all the dreams that I had are fading as well.
I'm so tired but I too don't want to feel guilty or leave my mom because she has no one else. So far I've been strong but I feel like giving up sometimes.
I don't want to feel like this anymore but taking care of her is a lot of work. I hardly sleep because she constantly wakes me up 2-3 times a night so I can get the bedpan and in the mornings the same.
The hardest part is I have a 6 year old son and I feel bad because I don't pay him a lot of attention because I have to take care of my mom.
I just don't know what to do anymore. Every friend I did have is starting their careers and I'm just stuck at home taking care of her.
I feel like I don't have a future.