I Want Out
I'm a 63 year old woman on SSDI. My whole life changed 8 years ago when my body decided 20 years of factory work was enough. I lost my home before I was finally awarded SSDI, and landed at my Mother and Fathers home. Unfortunately, my Father passed away 2 years later. I'm still here although I can't stand it anymore.
My Mother has always held me to a higher standard than my 6 other siblings, and expects so much from me. She refuses to call the others for any help, although I'm in constant pain with fibromyalgia/osteoarthritis.
She gets angry if I leave here without telling her. My whole life is not mine anymore. My sister and her 35 yr. old Son also moved in 4 years ago.
Sister's son smokes pot on a daily basis here, and has not worked 1 day this whole time! Mom ENABLES HIM. I'm treated like her slave and she actually made me shovel snow last winter while he played video games.
I'm a mess, I can't eat, or sleep.
Filled with resentment and anger all the time! I can't afford to get my own place, or I'd of been gone along time ago! I'm so angry, depressed, and suicidal. How can I deal with this situation? She treats me like her wicked step child.
My resentment is as high as it could possibly be. I quit talking to my other 6 siblings because they just quit coming over since they know I'll take care of Mom. I am so hurt, angry, and depressed. Help??? Any good advice from anyone? Be kind. Thank You. Julie