I Hate This!
I hate doing this! I hate taking care of my bedridden 89 year old terminally ill father. I don't know how long this is going to go on as he is actually doing better. I have help from VNA, but for the most part it's just me taking care of him, with help from my husband, as I have no living siblings. Really it's not that difficult taking care of him, but I still hate it, and I don't like feeling this way.
When my dad moved in with my husband and I three years ago, he was still able to basically take care of himself. Now his cancer has returned, and we were told he has 6 to 9 months. I know this is temporary, but I still hate it.
I hate being tied down. I hate having to wait on him. I especially hate having to wipe the shit off his balls, excuse my language.
I guess I just always thought that if things ever got to this point that he would go to a nursing home. I never wanted to be his caregiver, and now I am. He wants to die here. Sorry for rambling, just needed to get this off my chest.