I Feel LIke I Just Want to Be Free of This
My mother has had vascular dementia for over 2 years. I am the youngest of three and because I am not working at the time I was the one who took over the care until we could get help. I moved back home to help and being in the place I grew up has just brought back unhappy memories for me.
Plus the fact that I was the one who did all the paperwork to get my mom an aide, while dealing and seeing her descent into this illness daily.
Nobody understands me, one sister couldn't care less as she doesn't live with her and barely sees her.
The other sister lives with her also but works every day so she is gone and hasn't had to deal with this like I have.
I am looking to get back in the work force now that she has an aide and that is very frustrating as it isn't that easy anymore.
I feel so angry all the time and I find myself losing my temper with my mother and my sister who lives here.
I just want to run away and be left alone. I want my life back and I feel stuck because I cant afford to leave at this time.
I know I must sound like a horrible person but I am not, I am just tired already and I need a break.