I Feel Like I am Being Mentally Tortured
My widowed father, now 82 years old, was very active until 1 month ago when he fell from his porch onto his head.
He has required 24/7 care since then mainly due to his imbalance and memory issues. Due to a separation 6 months, I moved in with him and because I live here, it has become my responsibility to care for him.
I am the youngest of 3 and the only girl. One brother lives far away and the other is not in good mental health and so I am the only sibling that is available. He has been ordered to receive physical, occupational and speech therapies 3-4 times a week on an outpatient basis.
His short term memory is a huge problem. During the course of the day he repeatedly asks the same questions over and over and over again (there being maybe 1-2 minutes between). I make him write things down to help but then he doesn't remember doing that either. I have to supervise him in the shower and although I begin by calmly explaining the importance of being safe (and repeating myself as many as 10 times), I end up having to yell at him to get him to sit down.
Getting him to take his medicine is always a hassle. It has taken any where from 20-30 minutes to do so. I have to stand there until he takes it because he got caught hiding it the other night.
He has started to become rude, inconsiderate, demanding and does not listen to me. There are a lot more issues than this but I feel this entry would quickly turn into a novel. I feel like I am being pushed to the limit and frequently find myself crying and feeling alone.
I used to have visions of meeting someone special but feel that I am stuck here with no time to myself and no future. I feel cheated and angry while everyone else enjoys their weekend, there is no end to MY week!
Other than that everything is fine! Ha Ha Ha!!! NOT!