I am Losing a Sense of Who I Am
I care for my mum who is 88. She is mentally alert, but has no friends or family of her generation.
It is so stressful being the only source of her social interaction. I have to tell her about my phone conversations and about everything I do. I feel as though I am suffocating - sometimes I don't want to get up in the morning - I can't just do what I want - I am still a child in her eyes.
My sister only visits occasionally, and I resent her freedom. I am feeling desperate as I am in my 60's and I am afraid this may be my last decade of good health, and I am trapped here.
Am I selfish? I notice that it is so often the poorest, or loneliest person in the family who gets the role of carer. See, I am getting bitter and twisted!
Does anyone else feel like me?