Hate my Mum for Being Sick
I am feeling true hatred towards my Mum because her body is buggered and she can hardly walk. She has never taken any responsibility for her own health and now the outcome is that I have to do that. Why is she such a child!!!! I have been forced into a role of being her Mum from an early age and now when she gets sick I feel an real venom towards her because of it.
It's all her fault as to why she is the way she is and yet I'm the one who has to deal with it! I am trying to live my life, I have a demanding Job and a wonderful partner and yet all my spare time is dealing with her illnesses.
I don't think I would be so mad if she rang the doctors or and ambulance when she got ill but she just waits until I suggest we deal with it.
Sometimes I wish she was dead.
I keep thinking that this is going to be my future, looking after her. I may even move away and let my brothers deal with it.
I feel so bloody helpless. Cruel and unkind.
I will never have children as I would never want to inflict this upon them.