For Whom the Bell Tolls
by Fading Fast
My Grandma fell ill and everyone else refuses to help take care of her so yours truly (the oldest grand-daughter) was elected to help out.
I did so willingly especially since this is the woman who quite literally raised me for the first 10 years of my life. I do love her so. She always had such a nice way about her and was gentle and loving always.
That is not the case these days.
She has eaten her way to weighing 375 pounds and I tip the scales at 150 so I struggled to help her with the most basic of personal needs. Now she is bedridden and getting more demanding each passing day. She insisted on getting a bell to ring for me so I can drop everything and come running to see to her every need.
I quit my job and get a small sum of money from my own Mom to help take care of her but its not like a high paying position. She is getting so grumpy and demanding these days that she takes the bell and throws it under the bed so I have to crawl around on the dang floor looking for it.
She then laughs at me and remarks that I'm huge for a person my age and no wonder I'm still single. I told her the other day if I wasn't taking care of her 24-7 I might actually have a chance to meet someone. She just laughs and says I'm an "old maid" and I'll never find someone.
I'm angry, hurt, resentful and when I've expressed my feelings to my Mom and my Aunts they just shrug it off like its nothing since they don't want to take care of her themselves. I want off this crazy merry-go-round ride and want my own life back. Her Doctor told me she could go on like this for years!
I would like to have a life of my own and at this rate it doesn't look like that's going to happen unless I just get up and walk away. My own Mom and Aunts feel I owe my Grandma since she helped raise me but isn't that really my Mom's responsibility?