Feeling so Much Guilt and Think I'm a Bad Person
(Atoka, TN )
Not sure if anybody can relate to this or not but for our situation me and my husband brought his mom to live with us because she was in a horrible facility in Florida. She can't speak she can barely walk and the only thing that you don't have to do is feed her but she can't communicate which is heartbreaking and frustrating.
She's always been a very independent strong headed woman that never needed anybody and I struggle with the way I feel about everything because I wouldn't want my kids to abandon me.
It's not fair to be stuck somewhere you don't want to be with strangers taking care of you and feeling like you're unloved and uncared for. I do probably 90% of the caregiving because my husband works.
I can't just get up and go do things anymore not even a doctor's appointment for myself very hard to arrange. I feel like the worst person on the planet because I told my husband he can't go do anything extra other than work because I need him to help me with her.
I feel like I'm being selfish and unfair to him and at the same time to her but what about me I don't know what the hell to do and I don't know if what I'm feeling is normal I just know that I have it a very high stress level right now