I am the oldest of two siblings, and several years ago our parents made the choice to move close to my husband & I so that they could be a part of their grandson's life after years of being apart due to our military life-style.
The past 3 years have seen a decline in my mother's health and eventually her death 11 months ago.
During this time I entered a new phase of my life, taking advanced medical training for the EMS field; leaving an unfulfilled job and entering into a new and exciting career; our son's HS graduation time; and my husband taking on a new career challenge.
In order to work our chosen careers; he works out of town and is only home every other week; my son is happily embarking on his journey of life; I am continuing to the Paramedic level and almost completed, but this involves much training time away from home and working out of town 3 days/week.
One of the biggest challenges has been not only having been a major caregiver role for my mother but then being thrust into the caregiver aspect for my father who was close to being suicidal when Mom passed.
I deal with the frustration of not enough time to accomplish the demands of my studies and the time needed to take care of the situation with Dad. I handle the finances; dealt with her estate; stepped up to do the household chores for Dad while he was learning to cope, etc.
I am the one person that he comes to for everything. My brother lives 8 hours away and is actually as helpful as he can be from that distance. I look at myself today and realize I'm stressed to the max; I'm burnt out and actually, last week, considered quitting my training (and I'm only 3 months from finishing!);
I've gained 60 lbs. and I have lost all drive and motivation. I've spent the last 3 of my 4 days off sitting in a dark room watching movies. I did no homework; only called Dad one time; am 'short' with my husband on the phone and just didn't want to be an active part of the world anymore.
I know I need to find some sort of support but I don't know where to turn or even how to begin. Any ideas or advice from those of you out there who have been through this and survived? Or those going through it also and surviving better than me?