Caregivers are Angels in disguise or in tshirts and jogging pants ,lol
I have however picked up the "rebellious attitude" and have done some pretty stupid things this past year that I myself am ashamed of financially. Its nothing that can't be fixed but in the meantime all the eyes have the "told you so" in them and that's typical. I have been doing all this myself with both parents for 5 years and it always ends up only my responsibility. No one else even thinks they should be responsible. It doesn't fit into their schedules. A visit once in a while but usually not even that. My mother passed away a couple of years back and since I am not the golden child with my father I am treated as his personal worker and anything he can do to show his power over my patience is unbelievable. I want to speak up but risking his health is not an option and no matter what, I remember the man that raised me so I will ALWAYS be there and hope that a higher power gives me the extra strength to deal with all of these problems and my own problems I bring on myself. I am very proud of myself for endurance I never thought I had and the other siblings have offered assistance but not for the difficult things and its usually advice on how to do, not how can I help? God Bless you all and whenever terrible thoughts arise , remember what made you the caring person that you are to go to such extremes and I know that someone has a special plan for us all. No matter how difficult things seem there is always tomorrow and there will always be a big smile when you least expect it from sometimes the least expected :) trust your own heart..... its in the right place. |