(West Haven, CT, USA)
I'm 28. I put off going to college at 18 to help my grandmother take care of my grandfather. It was supposed to be temporary. Long story short, he passed away. My grandmother immediately deteriorated and gave up on life. She does not attempt to get up to use the restroom or even feed herself. She has no sleep schedule either. It is a 24 hour job to take care of her.
I worked a part time job that I lost due to missing so much work due to my situation. I have about 7 family members within a mile from my house that offer no help. I am the only thing keeping her where she wants to be, in her own home. I receive no financial support.
My credit has gone from a 820 to around 400. Three credit cards went to collections, 2 bank accounts are negative. I'm literally starving to death, losing close to 50 pounds in the last 2 years. I will never be able to finance anything.
My family owns a bar where they all drink every day. I do not drink but I have heard from friends that they continually talk bad about me not having a career at 28. When I walk into the place I receive nothing but dirty stares.
My grandmother is not a pleasant person either. She will go as far as to intentionally spread feces on the couch and walls for me to clean if I leave the house for more than 30 minutes or so. I haven't even been to lunch or a movie in 5 or 6 years.
I want to see her live as long as possible but that also means I may be doing this for a long time. I have an exit bag ready to go. I've been backed into a corner emotionally and financially with no way out.
I could have played D1 hockey and was always an honor roll student. Now with my non existent resume I would be lucky to work at McDonald's. The day she passes away I am going to kill myself, there's no chance I'm going to work a minimum wage job until I'm 80 with no retirement. Just existing until that day comes.