Angry and resentful...
I'm 28 my mother is 55 and has been diagnosed with MS 19 years, she's now at the stage where she's wheelchair bound and has very weak arms/hands pretty much needed help with everything.
I have 2 older brothers one 30 the other 34 they both moved out 6+ years ago leaving just my mother and myself.
It's been a really hard childhood as my father died when I was just 10 years old of heart failure leaving my brothers and my mother who could just about get about on crutches behind.
My grand dad then stepped in to help raise us along side my mother, he would be round every day looking after us till unfortunately he was taken ill with cancer and sadly died when I was 15.
Gradually over the years my mother got worse with the MS and instead of going out with my friends I'd be trying to run a house, cleaning, cooking, gardening and shopping. Helping my mother shower, get dressed, clean up after she had accidents.
It got harder and harder trying to work full time and care for my mom. Eventually, I managed to talk her into having carers come in 4 times a day to help...
Although she was reluctant to keep me doing everything for her. The carers have been coming just under 2 years now but with that my brothers have stopped visiting or calling just special occasions.
Now I've been with my boyfriend or 6 years it's like my mother resents me for leaving the house or having a life of my own, she just gives me horrible comments and looks like she hates I'm doing my own thing.
She gives me shopping lists every time I leave the house or calls my phone on my lunch breaks to pick things up for her on a daily basis. She will cancel carers calls because somebody new is coming so I have to change my plans for her needs.
I'm so depressed at the moment it's actually emotion bullying and constantly feel guilty for having My own life.