Anger and Frustration
2 years ago my 84 year old mother fell and broke her leg. We have been living together all my life and I have one older married sister. I am single. The accident was very traumatic for me as ambulances and operations were involved and I had to see to all of this on my own.
Matters deteriorated in that I had to go on early retirement to look after my mom permanently.
It has not been easy as the fact that I had to give up my career was very hard and I am still trying to deal with this. I have no real friends only ex work colleagues that phone me every now and again.
I now feel totally isolated and alone as where my mom and I always had good communication channels and shared everything, she has become difficult and stubborn and I do not know this person. I guess I am also dealing with the loss of the person I have once known as my best friend and anchor.
Today is one of my lows where I am very angry and want to lash out to every person. This is not the person I am and I do not know if this is normal behaviour but I get so angry for the smallest of things that I start shouting and become so angry that I shake afterward. and then the crying starts. The next morning I get up with a promise to myself that I will not get that angry anymore only for the cycle to start all over again. The bad part of this I am always feeling guilty and sad.
In South Africa I am not aware of any support groups hence me writing on this site.
Any help or advice will be greatly appreciated