A Cry for Help
I am 43 years old, the youngest of 7 children. My mom has lived with me all my life. I have 4 children of my own 2 are now adults and on their own and two that are still in school(8 & 15).
My mom recently had a mini stroke so, of course everyone was concerned..... I told my brothers and sister that I was afraid of taking care of mom because the doctors said that her chances of getting another stoke are higher. My husband and I both work and our children are involved in several academic activities. So there is no one staying home with her all day.
They tell me to do whatever I think is best so I suggested we put her in a nursing home. So then they tell me that they don't think that's what I should do and that they will be here to help me when I already know that they're not. Why is it that they say its my decision but when I tell them what I want to do they don't seem to agree?
So I am very confused, stressed, overwhelmed and tired so my week at the hospital this is what I wrote on how I feel;
Here at the hospital almost a week long....
A few people come to visit, no one stays long
Everyone has things to do or places to go...
Is that the type of help I will be looking for?
They said they are willing to help
It's easier said than done
Time will tell and soon the help will be gone.
Why tell me the decision is up to me
On whatever I want to do
I'm scared of taking care of her
What is it that I should do?
I want for her to be safe
She is in need of care
Mom had mini strokes
We weren't even aware
I wish someone would take her
I don't want to sound mean
She has been with me all my life
So can someone intervene
I am tired and worn out
Stressed and confused
Something tell me
I'm fixing to get used
Should I put her in a nursing home
They say that's not something I should do
Please God help me
To convince my family too
I really have my doubts
About the help they say they'll do
I love my mom dearly
So what can I do
In the end nothing will be done
They will be here a week or two
I will be back to the same routine
Every year through and through