A Brother and an Old Parent

by eric
(philippines)

Some people only have to take care of one sick person. Me, I happen to have to take care of two: one (1) a bedridden, alcoholic, abandoned by his wife and children, sick brother, (2) an 87 year-old mother. Plus, for the upkeep of our home and expenses, I have to tend a small store.

I just wish that it was only my mother I have to take care of. I can't ask my other brother for physical help (who also is a family man, and definitely not rich) who lives too far away from us.

I also have a married sister with 3 children (2 of whom are still studying). My mother takes 6 kinds of drugs for her hypertension and heart ailment. And I have to watch the time schedule of her taking the drug. I have to admit that sometimes I forget or miss it, especially if I am attending to the bedridden brother.

I'm 60 years old, male, unmarried. I'm of small build and that's why I tire easily, emotionally and physically. I am trying to cope with fatigue and emotional guilt. But, sometimes I freak out by shouting at the patient and kicking things around.

I also pray to God to help me cope. I even ask a pastor friend to pray for me unceasingly. I live in the 3rd world Philippines, where hospital care giving services is only for the rich. But I keep telling myself that God sees it all, and I'm not the only one undergoing this kind of stress.

Where can most poor people go but kneel down and pray to God. I won't ask any of you for financial support- but only this- Pray for us.